New mantra. Even got it tattooed on myself lol. Life got better but its probably about to get a little more complicating. Not sure If I am going to leave this story in the hands of fate. I might have to pick up the pen and do some editing. But it is what it is… If I can’t be the poet, I’ll be the poem…
I wrote these poems 10 years ago when I was going through another crisis in my life. I actually think I felt worse back than…
Miracle-To-Be
One day I will carry you in my arms
And place you above all things.
I will sing a lullaby
Of my own design
And smile while your eyelids
Grow heavy with sleep.
And with the stealth of a spy
I will stay by your side
Just to hear you breath.
Sleep well my little Angel.
Sweet dreams.
Repentance
A life full of regrets
Filled with unfulfilled promises
Where the dreams of the past
Are tainted by despicable actions
An overcast sky swarming with
Voluminous clouds without silver linings
Are heavy with tears
From the heavens
But only those that are conceived in my heart
And born from my eyes
Can wash away the stains on my soul.
Just watched a “A Walk To Remember” What a sweet fucking movie! I think I teared a little bit. I’m a bitch =/ LOL
Karma bit me in the ass… So I think its only fair =)
I’m better than this…
I guess there are always going to be bad days. No matter how many inspirational quotes I try to absorb on my journey towards enlightenment… I feel nothing. I still feel empty. I have glimpses of normalcy. There are moments that tease me into thinking that I found some kind of peace, where I feel like my old self again. To be totally truthful. There are more good days than bad lately. It is just that bad feel more like reality than anything else does.
Today I found the closure that I needed to move on. I am not proud of how I obtained the information. Regardless, there was always a nagging feeling that was holding me back and I had to figure it out. I won’t lie. It hurts. But it is what it is.
I can use this time to reinvent myself for better or worse. There is a devil and an angel on each shoulder. I don’t know who to listen to…
Someday,we’ll forget the hurt, the reason we cried and who caused us pain..We will finally realize that the secret of being free is not revenge, but letting things unfold in their own way and own time. After all what matters is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race………
So smile, laugh, forgive, believe and love all over again.
Seriously. Let me catch a break.
=(
When someone tells you their hero is Kim Kardashian… Keep it moving Gerry!!! (No matter how big her boobs are) =P
I have made some poor decisions in the last few days. Here’s to a fresh start tomorrow. God help me… LOL
